Hello 2011.

I'm making other plans to get there.. some day I will but right now let me work on the little details first. I've made up my mind and will proceed with my decisions. If I don't get what I want and I've tried I just have to accept its not meant to be. I didn't have a good feeling about Lion King and my current situation at USS but nevertheless, two minuses make a plus right? I'm going to make sure I get the next thing I want. Anyway I flipped a few books yesterday and I get excited just by looking at prints. Not funny. The tingling sensation I get in my tummy is priceless. I don't think I had this feeling since the last event I did.. which was a good one and a half years ago. I really miss it. Mal, Shaun, Harng and I hung out for a bit after the exhibition on Thurs and its high time I get back my life and be involved.

Had my first Gold Class experience today, finally watched Burlesque. Would have been great if I didn't have motion sickness and puked ughhhh. No more front row seats ever. The person over the counter lied! I specifically asked if it was too near the screen well now I know yes it is definitely too near. Songs and costumes were pretty in general... Christina Aguilera's voice is amazing as usual!

Because all the pictures are uploaded to Facebook these days instead of printed out or you know, up on my blog here's one from every party over the past two months (in order of dates).



Rashid's wedding



Lovely wardrobe girls and tech boys



Desmond's 21st!



3 and a half dressers ♥ ♥ I love them I hate them okay I think love them more.



Sophian the smelly supervisor wahahahaha



Post xmas party at Franz's place, with Laura on Skype!



Joanna's birthday at Coastes, I like the place :)



Butt's 24th at Zouk. 老了啊！！！！！



Last but not least and also the most recent, Gareth and Darren's birthday at Nabin's Bali Lane!






Chingay rehearsals tomorrow. Graveyard shift, this better be good. Alright I'm out x

Jealous at everybody who's rushing and getting involved with events... working hard, working late, having fun. Xmas, NYE, New Year's, Chinese New Year.. all but me. THE ONE ABOVE IS TRYING TO TEST MY PATIENCE AND SEE HOW LONG I CAN WAIT I KNOW OMFG but okay......................... Patience. I'm ready for bigger, better. All good things come to those who wait right? Yes. Okay. Good night.

Can't seem to get my mind settled down and go to sleep so I'll do a quick entry. Its almost the end of the year and in 2010 I've sorta.. changed. I used to hate eating alone but now I dine alone when I have to, sometimes enjoying the solitude and being a hermit. I only need certain number of people in my life (you know who you are ♥) and that's about it. Everything else is public relations, somewhat not as genuine... where I need to force a smile and be nice when I don't feel like it.

Some things I used to be bothered about don't seem as important any more, I have other priorities and I know I'm cool like that and I don't need to be labelled as "trying too hard" to fit in. Sometimes not being able to fit in is kinda special, you know you are different and secretly every other person wants to be you. Such a huge ego *cues Beyonce's song

Haha. I've felt more peace than compared to before and I like it. I guess it really comes with experience, the more shit you handle the more seasoned you are, the more you feel like you are ready for any war... any time. If I'm not meant to do this... then I'm meant for bigger things. Much bigger. I believe so. One day those of you who refused to give me a chance you'll regret it, I move and fast forward. Then on the very day where I feel "This is it!" I'll thank you for refusing me, because I made it without your help.

For now, I look forward to luck and chances in the New Year.

Ughhhhh this is one of the many reasons why I really like Theatre... decisions decisions.

Got a text at 12 noon, went back to sleep, got up at 4PM. Went down to the neighbourhood salon, got a wash and haircut. Off to M, D and J's house for dinner.. would be perfect if G was there hahaha! Probably my favourite group of boys at work. Meal was made for the smelly C who's ditching us behind :( I got lucky and manage to tag along hehehehe. Good for me.





Never knew dracs and phantoms can cook bahahahahhahaha but any way thumbs and toes up! Appetizer sun dried tomatoes were yummmm. I'm not a fan of ginger but the soup was really good.



Dessert always make me happy ♥



孩子的妈 bought me this retarded bunny now I can add it to my collection...... and whack it when I'm angry. So stupid and cute looking hahahahahaha!

Half the time I was enjoying the meal and listening to conversations, just absorbing the moment and feeling content to have met such people in my life. I love my Hollywood girls, (selective) cast, supervisors and stage managers XOXO

这里变，那里换。。很讨厌！！！走也不是，留也不是。
记住决定了要开心^^
有点舍不得，又能怎么办？路一直走下去咯。。。。肯定有个弯是对的！

以后就不一样了～