So they say, “丑人多做怪！”

Translation: Ugly people do ugly things, ugly people do weird things to make them uh, less ugly (which in 99.99999% of all cases, attempt fails)

I'm doing work for the sake of doing. I don't wish to make an effort, zero sense of urgency and 5 days to set-up. There's nobody to work hard for, it's business, everybody holds a knife and put on a smile. I can't function in an environment like that, I refuse to speak to anybody unless necessary because they're fucking psychotic in a disgusting way. Too bad that you're living in somebody else's shadow, sorry to say the spotlight will never be on your focus either. Some things are just natural, if you're born with it you'll be able to do it. Spare us the unnecessary drama, it's not working, you'll probably just shimmer a little from some attention but never ever shine like a star. Big joke.

Like a family friend's child who's spoilt rotten and so fucking rude I won't hesitate to give him 30000 tight slaps. The kind of kid that stomps his foot and start screaming and trying to get your attention by being ruder to you than any body else so that they can get back at you? I swear I'll whack the kid till he don't know his name if I ever get the chance to. This exact feeling I get when I speak to you morons.

My question back to you: What the hell is wrong with you, you fucking screw up?

I can't believe I have to behave like this in such an environment. Where'd the passion go? All sucked dry and long gone. I'm still trying to find a tinge of excitement to keep me going. I can't accept the fact that people work for the sake of working but here I am, finding myself in the same situation and detesting it.

Sidetracking, but in relation. To those that never really mattered in my life or appeared very briefly, stop contacting me like we've been very close. Or, to those that I've supposedly known for quite a while: Knowing doesn't mean attempting to keep the relationship/friendship going Thank You Very Much. If you simply disappeared and suddenly want to "hang out," save your effort because we were never really friends to begin with, or we don't have enough to keep it going. So yeah, too bad. I don't need you to constantly bug non stop and keep harping on "Do you remember the time" - get real, things change, people change and what ever that time was, it's history.

Countdown: Approx. 4 more months to go..........

Coughing like an idiot............... 我的妈呀，为什么这样子。

I hate the fact that its going to be Monday because it means the Start and I can't wait for The End. I have a love-hate relationship with Mondays and Fridays. Wondering how long more will this continue... I don't like the idea that I'm getting used to it. When ever the thought of how this world functions like this it makes me want to barf so bad, we're almost like a cyborg machine. Spin.. and spinning and repeating. For the umpteenth time, I can't wait for this year to be over.

Somebody so close is actually on the same boat feeling the same thing... 사랑해요

Thank god its Friday... I'm drained out.

Suddenly I feel so, so much better. Everything went away and the load on my shoulders is lighter. Am I getting used to it? Or did I finally overcome myself? Seems easier right now... It just dawned upon me that working life = no holiday. One year only 14 days of annual leave officially? Gee.. it's a no wonder why some people move around so much after staying for a while. I'll probably end up following their steps. Like, one period working, next few months self-declare holiday by quitting hahahaha! Otherwise when the hell am I ever going to get a holiday?! Have to say not every industry is able to let you job-hop though. Ah well. I am so bored right now, I edited my codes for this page again.

There is a reason why I keep watching dramas and shows related to entertainment, music, dance and the arts. If such films can influence people so much, there must be some truth to it to spur the story. The effort, raging determination and passion is something I cannot use words to describe. Momentarily I distract myself from what ever that's upsetting me and I get motivation to move on.

Face your fears.

Remember kids, in this fake plastic world, the only enemy is yourself. Blame nobody because you made the choice. So instead of wasting time crying, do it like you never do it before because eventually it will pay off.

So Valerie Sim, you know this is not over.

THIS IS WAR.

Mooni saranghae! Come upstairs to Unni's house often while you're here in S'pore k :) :) Hehehe the last time I saw her she was just a baby, who agrees she'll be really pretty when she grows up? Me! Hahahahaha. Look at the long lashes and pretty eye brows... and pouty lips, 我也要！哈哈哈！

3 days and it has actually been good. Even Nasi Lemak in the morning for all of us! ^^

Then work place would actually be conducive instead of having to be on your guard 24/7 just in case the volcano erupts. Half the time the atmosphere depends on the eruption, not helping when it's planted right in front of you. Whenever it reacts, everybody jumps. Very unhealthy.

It's quite a sad thing when you don't find passion in what you do any more and get upset over it every single day, it's even worse when you don't get respect from your employees - they fear you more than they respect you. Sold yourself to theatre, the least is probably to earn that respect. True enough individually it's almost too outstanding, I admire the fact that somebody can be an octopus and do so much, knowing plus remember every single detail it's almost horrifying. Perfectionist, now I got a taste of it. It's again, very saddening to know that it's probably forgotten you are what you are today because of Then, if I were you I'd seize the chance to make a grand exit. Let people know your glorious years, let them know how different you were than before, all in a good gracious manner.

I am who you were when you first started out, exactly the same passion and objective. Sometimes I see my shadow among these souls and I finally know.. but somehow I'll be different because well, I said, I know.

Nothing beats seeing/experiencing it for yourself.

Mental note to self: 6.30PM everyday, don't be stupid and do unpaid OT, especially when you know they might be exploiting you because we're really the type that will stay and attempt to finish everything... (but there's so much work to do!!!)

Sigh. The dilemma. Okay off to watch my korean shizz and unwind.


P.S. I'm hoping the younger cute artists from Kimchi land will be coming tomorrow hehehehe *greetings, 안녕하세요! 大家好！！*

P.S.S I think some of them know Chinese because I translated an email from them today hahaha, my god it's damn bad because I had to read character by character?! Time to brush up your Mother Tongue V. I had to call 911 and get help from Bong, thanks gf ♥!

You have no idea how much I looked forward to today, I miss everybody. Meeting up with friends and juniors, going back to the old school got me feeling all nostalgic again and again. The neighbourhood that everybody is too familiar with, somehow the grass smell better there. I've got no qualms to make it a tradition and gather yearly to see how much we've grown. My goodness it's the 6th or what, 7th year already. Even the juniors are growing up! Next thing I know, they're graduating. I may not be musically inclined as much as I was before, doesn't matter, it was the people there and then that made memories. The areas where we used to practice is still the same. People come people go, each batch with different stories to tell. It lingers around the space, I stood there and pictured 6 years back - the exact spot I sat with my scores in front. This is why I love old places. They remind you of the good old days, the present, and how much you've moved on to become what you are now. Happy *ahem* 19th *cough* birthday to our dear director, your actual age I still remember ;)



A little of the alumni, so many generations already...

Rushed down after work with 蔡蔡 (he was in the area), the smelly kids were really cute and apologizing for the small fire and lack of food cos they know we're starving. It's okay darling. Sweet potatoes, hot dogs and cake tastes extra good with company like you. I'm really envious of them right now, I want to go back to secondary school!!!!!!! Won't trade a million bucks for something like that to happen again.

TGIF, it's been a tiring week. Classes, OTs, juggling double positions in the company, PMS-24/7-boss.. It's okay. I will go through this because after that it's REVELATIOOOON! It's only a year I'll tell myself. Just filter out unhappy stuff and let them sublime into thin air.

Oh sweet bestie bought me a vintagesque chiffon top <3 *muah*

More to come? Noooo hopefully not. I can't believe I spent 6 days in office this week and I still have things to do. My dad's right, 老板的工作永远做不完。I want more time for myself! So next time when it's time to leave I'll stay no longer than an hour. Can't finish just leave it for tomorrow. I'm not trying to procrastinate, the work is flowing in like water 24/7. I'm not a machine, so too bad. Why should I be draining myself out when I know it'll continuously be like that unless they pay OT muahahahaha. Anyway they didn't agree to the salary I wanted, I'll probably put in 95%. Then again I jumped on the opportunity to let them pay 4K for classes without any long term contract.. I forgot to ask what's gonna happen if I fail the exams hahahahaha! Give and take I guess? I shall look forward to June 2010 hehe.

Quite excited for class tomorrow but I don't know what to anticipate, I don't even know where the school is. Oops. 明天要很早起身，要不然一定迟到。Who knows if they have some sort of connection and report my every move to my company hahaha, I'm always late or worse what if I fall asleep in class...

I'm officially in love with 동방신기 aka 東方神起 in Hanja/Chinese.



Now i know why they're #1 in Korea HAHAHAHAHAHA OKAY NOT BECAUSE THEY RIP THEIR SHIRTS OFF!!! Well, they're perfectionist in terms of performing thats why they're at the top. Probably one of the reasons why I'm hooked on top Kpop, the kids (my age, mind you) over there are so motivated to do what they love they go all out for it ^^ Hehehehe it definitely helps a lot when they look equally goodddd!

Gonna end this entry with one of my favourites...



H1N1 hit Singapore, so just be careful every one... 大家要健康哦！




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Celebrities going for cosmetic surgeries whether for health or the sake of becoming beautiful, what ever reasons they had I always think it's good to just respect them for their decisions, after all it's their body, we don't have a say. Some had to do it just to survive in this materialistic society, others being attention whores, or usually very unlikely though not impossible, to improve their body system? It's their choice, if they look better after slicing themselves, don't be a fucking hypocrite and tell me you don't like them because they're plastic. Admit it, majority look good after some fine tuning, they have every financial means to do it, don't be a jealous freak by protesting and insisting on au natural. Being natural is good, bonus points if you have good genes then all I can say is great for you and count your blessings, god probably favoured you in a way or another. There's nothing wrong with plastic surgery or being natural, over emphasizing on both is a complete turn off in my opinion. Most people who are addicted to surgery look like fug after a period of time, same concept as too many cooks spoil the soup. On being naturally good looking, yes we get your point already, even so over time you'll need to touch with some products and make-up, that's not exactly 100% nature already isn't it? You can't possibly go bare faced on TV or meet people, it's only basic manners to put on some gloss or powder because it shows that you respect who ever you meet by making sure you look decent. Social etiquette people.

I don't get what's up with netizens making a big hoo-haa about plastic surgery, okay so it might be news for today but please, let it pass tomorrow already. My upmost fascination is I don't understand how they manage to claim others have plastic surgery based solely on pictures they can find on the net. Ridiculous. With technology advancement these days, having photoshop, camera tricks and makeup doing wonders, seriously what makes you think that pictures aren't doctored for the sake of circulating news? Why can't people get this fact into their heads that editors and photographers have to do their job to produce pictures, it is only their job to edit and make them seem perfect - which eventually will lead to slight differences from actual person. Netizens must be bored out of their minds to have the time to go from link to link, search through archives to find old pictures of who ever to compare and announce "Look, plastic!" It is true that surgery is common these days for the ideal look, but it'll be stereotype to claim "those who look better now definitely did plastic surgery," you know I can smell vinegar 100 meters apart? Of course, there are pictures that are real, too obvious and even photoshop can't help, then for that instance you can say "they did some work."

( I, too, got plastic surgery )



Chuck Bass agrees with this post LOL.